Dear Universe…

Today I am Pissed at you…  for allowing me all this power and control and NOT TELLING ME…….  well actually for me not seeing the signs…… how I see things, how I react, what I want… what I don’t… everything is up to me……

So here I sit… depressed, alone and it all my fucking fault… all mine. And now I need to fix it. But first I want to tell everyone… be very careful what you do, say, think,.. how you act .. read the ques, smell the signs… and no not the superficial ones like oh a bird pooped on my head… yes… those are there for other reasons but for the greater one that is you…. I am talking about your signs… YOURS…   what are your signs??

With everyone being of different origins / cultures / religions / sexes / likes / dislikes / soul desires etc… you have your own signs and only you know what they are and how to fix / trigger them.

Take action now and start looking at yourself plainly??!!!!   What the fuck is it I am? And what do I want?

Start simple? Body? Physical…   are you happy?  Simple ? Yes / No?   Yes – Good show…  No, ? Get your lazy ass off the fucking couch and do something. Simple… all up to you.

Body?  Physical, getting enough? Yes? Good show…. No ?  Why the fuck not?? Then look at what you would like and start manifesting and that is just as simple, we just make it sound complicated so we call all look smarter than the other and then want to charge more because we have a degree and something stuck to the back of our names…   oh..  where did that come from…

Anyway…  then we start looking at energy…..  the world and all of creation runs on an energy… we are all part of this energy and we can harness this..  to change our direct environments… way to much now…  anyway.. there is an energy, a flow, a rhythm if you wish…   you need to tap in.

You need to soul…  so what ever it is that gets you to soul… do it… you know you… find your SOUL. Paint? Poetry? Music (all types people!!)   I am not talking about all fancy shit… what ever makes you FEEL…….!!!!!   KEY WORD HERE.  Because if you cannot feel like that all the time…  YOU ARE OUT OF SINCE and need to realign.

And by just being happy and being the best YOU…. you are aligning yourself… simple… its not rocket science… my sister does that… haha…   she is so smart she scares me… but I kick ass when it comes to life skills .. so we balanced… x x x love u…

Now….  Where to start…. Simple…. ARE YOU HAPPY????   TRULY HAPPY…  the deep down inside happy that makes you get up and say… fuck I LOVE my life and MEAN it… not as part of a (vision board you put up) … sorry I understand where they fit in as well … they just don’t work for me as well as I thought they would…) honestly. If that is where your focus is best… by all means do it… mine however if I had to be in school now would be termed ADHD.. or ADD or whatever those supposed HYPER kids are labelled now.. another topic altogether…

Your True Happy…..  and don’t be silly now, don’t go and think you can do what you want and it is all ok… it is yes… but there are rules for this ‘world’ and you will not go un’balanced’ … karma…….  We miss the most important tool… BALANCE.      It’s there for a purpose. Balance time, emotions, energy, thoughts, actions….. world will follow if everyone just took care of their own. Pick up your shit….

So……BALANCE yourself your life your emotions your being… and you’ll see and experience the best….   From my personal experience …  it goes just as high as it goes low…  for those on the top…  I hope you understand fully understand what it means to be there and APPRECIATE IT…..  or you will soon.

For those at the bottom…  I understand I know…..  its fucking hard… but there is hope…. JUST LET GO……………….. of FEAR….. ANGER…. ANXIETY….. and you need to find out why it is there and face the monster….. your own one stupid…   and then you will move… you cannot force it… you cannot avoid it, it will follow you from lifetime to lifetime until you stop and turn around. So why delay the process… trust me the ques get harder every time you get here.  That is why I say your pain is your own…  understand…  yours.

 

BOOM………

 

Anyway so I started really angry at …. Myself. I believe the letter has served it purpose……. X x x

The Start…

The other side: –                                                                                   #BE&ME

The youngest memory I have, is of looking at a figure of an odd man, to say the least…  looking in through the curtains of my room, and I mean I can see him staring at me but the curtains are closed…  and he is on the other side… get it…

I share my room in the …. Ok.. and I mean it was really just ok part of JHB south with my barely older brother and older sister.

This man with his wild hair is looking at me with gritting teeth as if I am his next meal.… I can feel the energy coming from him…  it fibrates at a certain frequency… and that frequency was something I become accustom to.   The dark was not my friend… but it was the place I retreated to when the world was not my friend…

Sitting in the cot, I am very young but I know, while I stare in fear at this thing through the bars of my old fashioned wooden cot that there is no way a human would be able to stand on that ledge…  because there isn’t one….. the ‘balcony’, actually the little zink stoep roof, was to the left of that window… I know because my brain takes mental snapshots of what I use to think was irrelevant shit and now, come to see, form the basis of all my theories because it form part of the picture.

I scream and so does my brother…  I know he saw it, he talks about it but only when he is my brother. My sister didn’t see anything I am not sure if she had blocked it at that age already or what, not sure…. Everyone is different. That day was the first of many ‘dark’ days that I can recall and this is my story of the UNKNOWN…  hopefully writing this would bring some clarity or guidance or understanding to others.

This is actually the blog/book I wish I had as a teenager when the shit really hit the van…..in my life that is … what I didn’t know is that it was happening to my soul sister half way across the world as well… ill call my sister BE… she is my sister in the ‘spirit world’ now and so connected, when I just fucking listen she says… and laughs.. she loves to laugh it actually bubbles from her…      I hope people would read this and find some sort of clarity to be able to make a better choice next time around because it is coming again, everything is a cycle and you keep getting the same thing until you choose something else.…….  You have the opportunity to choose a different outcome……. a much happier one…….

This is the stories of #BE&ME

Cycles – General

I had the book “Kringe in die bos” to read in matric year… well I think it was matric those details were irrelevant at that stage… and even though I really didn’t do much at school I can remember that annoying book…  it annoyed me because I just couldn’t understand this thing and it bored me to death because of that….

But in that book his story is about allot of things, however all I remember from the kids talking… was that it has something to do with the circles an elephant walks to end up behind you and tramp your ass, only like an elephant can.. and by the way.. please you foreign people these great five etc etc we have DEMAND respect…  we know that.. that is why you get eaten and killed when you here and not us.. they are not cute and furry… they are natural killers you don’t really stand a chance against without a weapon of some kind..

Funny, just quick… we were at one of the awesome nature reserves we have here and they have a open restaurant, as in, inside the park. We stopped there with the kids and got some ice cream… our weather here is a toasty thirty something on a lekker summers day, not the ones that you wish they made portable air cons you can wrap around you while you walk….. anyway, we were enjoying the sun and the fresh taste of the ice-cream when a ranger approached us and started calling out calmly because you never YELL LION… never… so calmly he said a pride was approaching… with females and a mal.. in less then 3 seconds all the South Aricans were in their cars doors lock windows closed.. if you don’t have aircon.. aaaa… tuff dude your window does not open… and yes.. Lock your doors, they know how to open them go google…

And there… all the ‘visitors’ have cameras out taking pictures… really ???  we get the bad publicity… cmon… oooooo lion.. no oo lion… run, secure space.. then oo KING LION look.

I now understand the book but in my own way…….Cycles, they are everywhere… from the cells in your body, your thought patterns, emotional reactions, relationships…. Ooh they are fun… Cycles are everywhere…   so you need to make yourself aware of your cycles and no not a monthly woman thing drolle… it’s actually something everyone has. So make yourself aware of your cycles and start working with your own rhythm….   Everyone has a rhythm a song of their soul. (Another Time)

These cycles spiral up and down or sideways or all at once it all depends where you are on the scale of consciousness how you would perceive it. We all chose a certain experience to well experience..  the saying ‘we are here to learn’ and.. and.. and.. to me it’s not really the point of being here but more the experience of being here and that actually makes you appreciate the GOODNESS of what ‘WE’ are, we don’t learn this… we just remember what we already know. To experience the best possible us…

Cycles… the good thing about them is you always get another chance so don’t be so hard on yourself karma will take care of that…..  (Evil Laugh)…. Just start becoming aware of how you and your silly little life actually affect others especially if you are a part of their 4 main pillars…  and we are all a pillar at one point or another. So if you did not understand the first time and you made a … there are no bad choices just more challenging ones…. You have the opportunity to rise above the pain because difficulty = pain to me… take in what happened, feel it, process it and recall as needed when making decisions….

Remember, these cycles are there to help you open and understand what you came here to understand… simple ja very….  Whatever Universe.  LOL..

The Earth…..

So… this is the start like many other of my blog… the way I see the world.. my story. Everyone has one… these are mine… my experiences and my world…   it sometimes seems strange and hard to believe but it’s still mine and every word a true experience and happening…. sharing it so that others can see that it is ok….  Everything is ok and as it should be this MAD….  MAD….

The world is not as complicated as we think it is, it’s a bit worse but it can be explained….  Lets take the latest picture… yes I am one that gets stories… examples of how life and the universe works but in such simple terms … even I can understand it and I aint no Einstein…   now that man was ahead of his time….  I believe.

Anyway, it all started while I was driving to work as per normal but had the urge to feel the earth again.. I do this never realising I’ve been doing it since small…..  I feel rhythms and energy currents etc… and so did my BE… ill just say BE is my soul sister… more about her and others later… back to the picture….

Feeling the earth I felt the usual pain…. That we, as the inferior species in that picture, .. again my opinion .. are doing to her… yes to me she is a her…  mother earth thing… for now anyway….  The point is I felt the pain… I could feel the sadness she carries for us and the pain we cause not even realising it to her and each other…. Anyway it was dark and sad… again… I don’t even know why I do it…. Its depressing…

Then just before I hit the bottom.. yes we all do and it’s a cycle… I decided to make the best and be the channel from the universe to the earth for some healing to take place….   That is when I saw it…

Everything is ok, even with the earth, she will carry on existing…. No matter what we do to her.. she is just following our ques…

Everything is about change and learning and evolving and then starting all over again.. I mean really why do we want to even do that…????

Anyhoo… the point is… the earth is fine… we are not (well we are but for us the change will be a bit harder if she does turn red….lol)… she will continue to exist even if it is as a burning ball of fire………. And from there back to the tiniest atom… even smaller… and starting ALL over again… deciding what you wanted to feel and experience and learn and grow… expanding… always expanding… completing one starting another…… always changing….

Like that… this resonates with me, this I understand and feel to be true for my experience… and that is why I decided to write… bc mine might be the same as yours and then we help each other find some sort of peace if I can call it that in whatever it is you need peace in bc there as well everyone’s ‘peace’ is diff but then same….   Long discussions these…

SO this is how I see earth and the current global crisis…. There is no crisis to her… she will continue to exist with or without us ….  We are just a small factor in her environment and she will decide what is best for her… to experience what it is she is after and us… all intertwined but separate.. hahaha  I feel like the MAD HATTER… the ideas and pictures have so many different views and it all depends on the shade of glasses you are wearing.. the key is to able to remove the glasses and see the world and the universe and everything in it as it really is….. a balance….  OF EVERYTHING and NOTHING.